Breakdown

No NOT me....

Today out of a suddenly at work, i heard sobbing sounds behind me, I turn back to see my cubicle neighbour balling out. I didn't dare go to him and ask.. whats wrong. He sob sob sob.. then he stopped. I then msg him and asked are you ok?

he said he is emo. Just yesterday he told me that he has been diagnosed with chronic depression. When I asked the dr diagnosed you? he said no i told the DR that. On Monday he was on Medical.

I have known him for 3 years, starting off in the same team, he joined like 2 months before me. In year 2006, we had a restructure. Our team was disolved and myself and him was pulled together with my super to our current team. Well, what i believe is that our super pulled u to be with her.

For the past 2 years, life hsn't been easy. Let me tell you why. Coz this is not what both our skills are. Eventho he did have abit of skills in this area, his passion is not this. he likes development work. so being in infra side is just not his forte. He like myself have been asking for a movement for 1 year now and the answer given to the both of us are the same. Which is big flat no.

Today he just couldn't contain it any longer and broke down. Also least to say that my super has been hounding him down... kind of pitiful. But I guess his only way out is to leave if he can't stand it anymore coz staying on isn't gonna change anything.

I hope i don't get to that stage too. I feel what he feels coz you're never good enough.. for that someone... who has authority over you. Its sad sad sad.